Monday, December 24, 2012

Week 45: 3 wishes

3 Wishes.. hmm..

I know the obviously answer is something that would change my life. Whether it just be for me to accept myself and be okay with that, or to have lots and lots of money:) haha.. But that's not the case.

My first wish:

We'll start from the top. And it'll go for my oldest Brayden. Maybe because I was a single mother working 3 part time jobs and going to college full time that there's just something between him and I that could probably never be replaced. At least on my side.. but I wish that he will continue to push himself in a direction that will give him the credit he deserves. He'll see how wonderful of a person he truly is. How to look into others and be aware of how he treats one another and hold strong to what he believes in. To know how hard it is to take back words and apologize for lies told. So always take the high road and be a man of integrity. That as long as he tries that is good enough by me and really that's all that truly matters haha

Second will go to Kyler. I hope that he embracing this compasionate side that he has. That he will learn that this is something to be proud of and practically every woman would love:) That he doesn't hesitate on how smart he really is and he knows that no matter what he has a strong unit standing behind him to help him in every which way possible to further his dreams. To never give up on his dreams! To believe in himself. For him to not get discouraged with failure, but to realize that he might need to just put that much more into it for it to happen. And it's okay to try again to get it.

Third wish goes to Zaelur. First and foremost.. that he learns that he doesn't need to scream to talk or laugh and that everyone can hear him. Good lord! But I hope that he sees in himself the fun smilie child that he is. How he wants to be a giver and make people happy because it makes him happy. BUT.. to understand that others could take advantage over it and be cautious at the same time. To take his own way and direction and not follow others, but be a leader at times to show the difference in ways can be. For him to know that he is a fighter and he can survive the most difficult times. To continue to love Jesus and going to church (really not sure where he got that from but proud that he loves going to church). To just continue to love.

A combination for all of them. To know that thru thick and thin, Family will always be there! Whether we are here physically or just memories but to know that there is always someone cheering them on. Know that they might fight and argue, but know that they are brothers and brothers they will always be. Take that and run with it. There is no one that can replace the other and be proud that they are who they are. Be kind to one another, yet hit the other on top of the head when misbehaving. Teach and learn with one another to be the men that I know you can be.

Will always love you and I hope you all the most happiness that life can bring you. Know that it's not always a basket of roses, sometimes you might get stung by a bee, but doesn't mean you should stop smelling them because of the one bad moment. Love love love you all!!

Week 44: What is your favorite time of the holidays

No brainer for me, only problem is that I don't see it much anymore. But here are the times that we're my favorite.

Growin up in a family of 4 brothers and 1 sister, it was like there was always something fun to do. Whether it was going sledding, play fox and the hen, or just making snow angels. To decorating the tree, playing games and eating lots and lots of cookies:P (that's my ultimate favorite haha).

So, when we all added our spouses to the mix, and the grandchildren, it just became more fun. To sit and have the kids run around inside and out, constantly having to watch the cookies before it was too late and the 2 yr old took off with 10 hah. But we just loved playing games, watching movies, or oh another all time favorite is playing Mario Kart in the Foley household.

There were those holidays tho that something would happen and someone would be in a fight. I only did it once because my son was sick and my older brother decided to comment on him crying and I just about .. no I did go off on him. My dad told him to get out.. oops.. he didn't and things were fine. He later apologized, after he had his own children and got to experience it on his own time.

But my family is what makes me the happiest, it's what makes me light up inside and feel good. Unfortunately ever since we moved, things have been different. Obviously can't go home as much, and Tom's side of the family. Well to say the least, they suck! His step father always leaves to go somewhere right after dinner. He doesn't talk much unless you talk to him about something he enjoys which isn't much for me. His sister is a spoiled little bitch that believes everything should be about her. His brother, now he has changed because he recently got married and had a baby. I think he's stepped up to the plate. Only problem is he's upset with us because we don't drive an hr to see him all the time, and in which they NEVER came to see us.. but okay now I'm going off on a tangent. But Tom's mom thought that she could somehow replace my families activities. And that lastest like a whole 5 seconds. Tom's siblings were like what are we doing, and then that was about it.

So unfortunately I miss my family dearly. I can't say I like hearing all the yelling (kids and mom), but I miss the fact that we were all around each other and we're able to laugh and enjoy the time that we had together. Some day I'll be back there again.. hopefully sooner then later:)

Week 43 - Recovery Advice/Encouragment

Advice.. gosh I could so give it, but it's the taking my own advice that I have an issue with:)

The holidays are here for us to share in each others lives. To celebrate family and friendships that we have. Whether they are still with us, or if we just have to use our memories and maybe pictures to enjoy each other.

My advice I guess is look around. Look at the people that are there. Maybe they are not as signifcate in our lives, maybe they just touch it for a moment or sporadically, but they see something in us that for some reason we at times just can't seem to reach. So, let that sink in. Let it be known that there are great things about yourself and these people see them and want you to notice them as well.

My encouragment is to just laugh and smile for a bit. Don't think about anything else except just being you and in that moment. Let yourself sink into that place where your almost up above looking down and just feeling a sigh of relief that at times life isn't that bad.:)

So, enjoy your holidays. You'll make them what you want them to be. And we all deserve the very best in our own little way.

Merry Christmas everyone!